Okay so i have been thinking if i should have shared this or not but here goes nothing:
The past month have a lot of shit happened. i have done really bad things and will be gone now until i feel better because i want to commit suicide to be honest. I shouldn't share this at all but eh.
It all started actually for years ago but it always was laying behind and not long ago a trigger object made me walk into the wall. i can't think straight. i can't focus. im slow. i hurt myself. i tell myself bad things and can't stop even though how much i try. and now... i eat pills to be happy. my life is destroyed i hate the pills. i wear a happy mask every time i leave my room even though i want to kill myself. but i won't do that... i can't leave my family or friend.... not yet.
i just wanted to say that. and i will be gone for a while until life gets lighter again. i have started loose hobby's i loved to do. such as drawing but still does it sometime now and then.
i really wish i was laying about this... i am getting help professionals and doctors and everything that can help so there is actually nothing to worry about. i will be back the question is just: ...when?
im sorry for the depressing pic but it's a summary of what have happen lately.
i will probably delete this later idk